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RIP Philip Seymour Hoffman

RIP Philip Seymour Hoffman

I wish I was speechless. I wish I had nothing to say. I wish that I could look at a loss like that of actor Philip Seymour Hoffman, and not have it rip me apart. I wish that he hadn’t been so tortured that he needed to stick a needle in his arm to hide from his demons. I wish he had asked for help. I wish he hadn’t taken 23 years of sobriety and pissed it away. I wish he had had an Overdose Prevention Kit. I wish someone didn’t have to explain to his three children that Daddy isn’t coming home again. I wish someone will explain to his wife that she bares no guilt in this, at all. I wish that she finds some peace and relief that she no longer has to worry where, when or if. I wish that I wasn’t thrown back ten years watching my brother on life support after his heroin overdose. I wish I didn’t have the rage in the pit of my gut, but I do, and I can’t wish that away. The only thing I can do, what we all can do, is talk about it. Reach out to the people around us who might be abusing substances like heroin and prescription drugs, and let them know that there is help available if they want it.  Someone wrote something on a Facebook post, “…and people think we should legalize drugs!” Well sir, yes, we should. That way we can regulate it, monitor it, and hell, tax it! There are so many advancements in other countries where they are seeing decreased deaths, decreased sicknesses, robberies, murders, etc., when they legalize drugs or offer a safe environment for using. All the symptoms associated with illegal drug use are lessening when the government tries to help rather than punish. Do you have any idea how much money we spend prosecuting drug cases where we don’t even offer help as an alternative, just punishment? I could go on and on, and you know you’ll hear more from me, but I’m too sad, and too angry at the moment. I wish I wasn’t. I wish to gather my children in a beautiful bubble to protect from the world, but I can’t. I can only wish that they move through it with just the right amount of fear, the right amount of innocence, and a whole bucket of wishes!

Stay well.

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